Sappyness

I just read a post of one of my friends. ( http://ipartee.multiply.com/journal/item/79 )

Oh yeeaass people, it's all about loooovvveee. It's about love growing back. It's about love finding it's way again to one's heart.

I read posts and it's not everytime that I can relate to the post. There are even times that I find it more "understandable" because somehow it feels that I can see the story in a perspective, you get what I mean? But with Marco, I somehow found myself related to his "ex"-stage of being stagnant in that particular department: Love.

Well, it's the same thought as to other seven hundred billion people around the globe that made me stop and think for a second, it's when will I have the same feeling? Again?

No, it's not a question followed by a sigh. I'm not tired of waiting. I'm not waiting at all. I've been so caught up in the joys of individuality that somehow I forgot what it felt like being with someone. When I used the term "stagnant", it was so to speak. I-so-love-life-right-now blah blah blah and all that crap is true. I guess, I was just brought back to the feeling of being in love. (Or maybe, it's just the rain. Haha.)

I flipped through channel seven a while ago and in time heard the line,

"...so the phrase "You complete me" should not be said...",

and I completely agree. One time during a sober moment a little while after we finished a bottle of tequilla, my friends asked me why I didn't go for *mentions a couple of names, I pondered on the thought for a while, and said these words (that I can't believe came out from me)

"They lose individuality. It's when you start to fall for that someone, head over heels, with sparkling blinking eyes and leave your world entirely believing you must create a whole new world of your own. It sounds right, right? But I don't know, I think it just doesn't go well for me. I mean you'll begin to feel something for this someone then all of a sudden the person changes to little Ms. Muffet. You know what I mean? They change to a whole different person just for you. I don't like that. If anyone would change, they must do it for themselves not for anyone, but for themselves. I always fall for that someone who is entirely independent, but chooses not to, but you know the person can. Get what I mean? You see, it's like this quote that I've read, it goes something like,

I'll love someone who can live without me, can breathe without me, can work without me, can eat without me...but chooses not to.

It's sort of like that quote. I always fall for that someone who really can do these things without love. It turned out, for *the names mentioned I seem to get tied up tightly that I feel I have certain obligations, that I don't like. I felt *names mentioned are the ones who can't do these things without a loved one. I mean it's the ability to be happy without having a lover. Lovelife is not like a world you must focus on, it's just a department in your life and all the other departments needs attention too.

I just want to love point blank. No mind games, no dramas (yet), just plain and simple love."

Confused? Me too.

"...so the phrase "You complete me" should not be said..."

I agree because you must be "complete" not because of someone,

you must be "complete"

soley and basically.